“Remember the emphasis on the heart. The mind lives in doubt and the heart lives in trust. When you trust, suddenly you become centered.” ~ Osho
With the “holidays” here everyone is excited for all the easy going pleasure that comes with it. You know; shopping, overeating, overspending, mistreatment of self, mistreatment of others, family fueled triggers, emotional crash once the day is over, longing for something or someone, feeling physically sick, exhausted, negative judgment of self for all of the above ……woo hoo!
If you are you still going through the same motions of existing and still avoiding the emotions of living then perhaps it’s time for a change. Buddha said start where you are which in other words means you can begin at any moment in time to shift the patterns that no longer serve you by recognizing them, not judging them or yourself, and feeling for the roots of them.
Perhaps you only felt loved if you received something new or if you did something for someone else. Perhaps it’s about filling up with food or drink to continue to numb from your pains. Whatever it is it’s rooted in childhood patterns of sadness ingrained in you since birth. It doesn’t mean that you have to be ruled by these patterns for the rest of your life.
Begin with noticing your patterns and feel which ones haven’t and still don’t serve your heart, spirit, mind, and body. Then begin to make a small shift towards feeling the root of it. As I’ve said it’s from childhood. With patience and practice you can begin to notice and breathe through the discomfort of not continuing your same old patterns. This is how you can begin to create new patterns that are conscious and healthy and kind to yourself. Pay attention to your mind because it will do everything it can to convince you to continue on your same old same old but your heart and spirit are your true guides so trust in it and understand that it will be against your grain of existing to do so but also be clear that the your old ways of operating haven’t been very fortuitous for you. Wishing you peace, love, friendship, and joy.