It’s three years today since you went away, leaving me here on my own nearly insane as I felt horror, torture, and pain, on the abyss of absolute alone

But you stated post mortem that my life would be a complete one eighty from that day, but I thought it was a lie, taking me two years to heal, not knowing how I would ever find my way

My soul lifted the load as you had previously told and my heart now feels peace, love, and joy

I love you each day but the missing has gone away, replaced with beautiful memories and thoughts

From your ashes and my ruins I am (en)lightened and free to feel with loving kindness, compassion, and glee

Thank you for continual guidance from above, my treasure, my gift, my love

I welcome each new day breathing free

This photo was taken five days before Jillie left her body. It was our last meal together. She left April 23, 2011 at 2:55AM and she is peaceful and joyous and content.